One thing I love about living in NY is that there are 4 seasons. Spring, Summer, Fall and well a crazy amount of months of Winter. Fall is my favorite season with the perfect temperature that is sweat pant and hoodie weather and the colors are just beautiful. Then there is Winter which I can handle a couple days of and then I am totally done with it. Yes, the snow is pretty, but I hate being cold and driving in the Winter weather is just something I am not a fan of.

Just like the weather has seasons, we go through seasons in our lives too. God is in control of these seasons of our life that we go through. It is up to us to be obedient and choose to live the life that God is calling us to. And we should be obedient to these changes because God had them planned out before we were even born! The thing though is that these seasons may not always be easy. But what you say about it will determine how you experience and live it.

It requires Faith to make it through some seasons. Faith comes from hearing and hearing from the Word of God. Pastor Joe from CFF said that so many times I don’t think I will ever forget that (which was why he said it so many times! Pastor made an analogy when he talked about faith that I thought was cool. He said that receiving from God’s reservoir only requires faith. You have to “plug into” the outlet (God’s reservoir). Faith is the “plug” we use to tap into all God has given us. “Faith is like electricity; you don’t have to analyze or understand it to enjoy its benefits. All you have to do is plug in!”

I have been through many seasons in my life. Some have been so good and others I have struggled and have required a lot of faith to get me through.  I heard someone say this once “You will find peace not by trying to escape your problems, but by confronting them courageously. You will find peace not in denial, but in victory.” I attended a women’s event at CFF in February and really was hit with the fact that I am not at peace with some things because I keep trying to just escape them instead of facing them head on and becoming victorious over them. Pastor Kat called me out from the stage where she was praying and didn’t even know it. But God knew that there was someone like me who needed the reminder that there are chains of three specific things that are holding us down. These three things are: Depression, Low Self-esteem and Eating disorders. Wow….that could not have been any more clearer to me.

That night I said that I will not allow those chains to have a hold on my life anymore. Ha….easier said than done. But, I have faith that God will help me through. It is day by day and some days moment by moment. I have in the past year learned to be a lot more confident in myself and in my abilities and not worry about what others may think. I am trying to have joy and remember the good things during the day instead of focus on the negative which is so much easier to do however will ultimately keep me in depression. I am also not allowing my eating disorder to be my identity and control my life as much. It is still a day to day struggle that for now I have to be conscious of however it is not what takes over my thinking or control my next move. I have hope and will trust in God more.

Seasons come and seasons go…and in all of them I choose to have faith and pray that I will be obedient to what God is calling me to do.