We live in world where we want to be in control of what we do, where we go, when things happen. I am completely guilty of this too. People in the church always say God is in control or let God be in control. That is not necessarily easy when something doesn’t go the way it was planned and then we get something else in our mind that we want to do.

The past two weeks in Texas have not been anything that they were planned to be. And I finally had decided this weekend that I wanted to and was going to move back to NY. I miss my family and friends, I miss the familiarity of the state, I just feel like I would be more comfortable working there. But….my Texas license was issued today which means that tomorrow I can start working here. That gives me no “excuse” to go back to NY. I guess God had other plans that what I had and he has a reason for me staying here in Texas. Just wish I knew what it was because I have a lot of anxiety about starting this job and just living here.

Now I need to focus on trusting God and being confident in myself and my abilities as an OT and just as a person going into this job.